She knew she had a long dream… but she couldn’t remember what it was when she woke up… She pondered her mind to recollect the few scenes in her dream… Splashed some water on her face, still trying to remember the dream… Didn’t know why, but she did this every morning… as though remembering her dreams would bring some meaning to her life… some insight into what she really wanted…
Walked to the same bus stop… saw the same familiar faces with unknown names …  The fashionable lady she observed everyday was today wearing a white sleevless shirt with a black silky skirt and a bold red shoes… She knew she would never wear them… but still found the lady very fashionable!  Thinking of doing some shopping the weekend, the bus came and dropped her for work… 
On reaching office, she smiled at a few faces to hide the wierd feeling that always came inside her on seeing too many unknown faces … She searched for a vacant seat and settled down quickly in front of a computer… Work went on and on… Lunch from the same old food court… Sitting all alone with people walking and talking all around her… A few guys would look at her.. she was pretty and they gave her a teasing smile… She would ignore the look and turn the other side… There were also a few friendly faces who would look to invite her into the group… but she would turn away from them as well… She didnt know why she would avoid being friendly… She had so many friends back home… but here she just turned away as if she never saw them… and started playing with her mobile, acting busy…
After work she would run for the 5:30 bus when others would stay back, chat a little with friends, have some snack and catch the 6:30 bus! She had nothing to do going back home… but she had nothing to do staying at office either… She ran and jumped on the first bus that had just started to move… This was the bus she always caught.. and was happy she didn’t miss it today either… Panting for breath she walked in to see all the seats were occupied… Feeling a bit awkward being the only one standing and everyone looking at her… she turned to face the front mirror to try and relax… A deep comforting voice of a gentleman asked her to sit next to him as he moved his laptop bag giving her space… She tried to refuse the offer, but she would rather avoid the attenion she was gaining from others than sit next to a strange man… He tried talking to her and being friendly… But a few hesitant nods and disinterested looks from her made it clear that she wanted him to shut up and mind his own business! He gave a look that read very clearly “Whats wrong with this lady!!” and he turned away…
It was nearing her home and she walked towards the door.. the driver said…
“This is non stop till M*d*w*l*”…
“But I always get in this bus and always get down here…”…
“No madam… new bus routes…was put up on the notice board…. this is non stop till….”
“Ok.. Ok… Bhaiya just this one time, please let me down here… its getting dark…
” No madam… the other staff will complain if I let you down and dont let others..”
“But please, I’m new to this place.. just this ones..”
“No madam… go sit in your seat..”
She starts getting scared seeing her bus stop pass by… but she wouldn’t cry… she looked back at the gentleman who offered her a seat, wondering if he would offer help again… But he didnt respond… She tried talking firmly to the driver now..
” Stop this ones… or I will have to complain to the transport department… for not letting me go this ones… I told you I am new to this place and … “
But her fear was too evident in her voice and the diver wouldn’t give in…. She finally prayed… “God please help”… Thats all she could say… and the traffic was blocked…
“Open the door now… its a traffic block anyway… so just open the door!!!” she shouted… The driver mumbled something and opened the door….
She got down in a hurry feeling a bit giddy after the whole scene… She noticed that the handsome man she sat next to also got down with her… She looked through the corner of her eyes to see if he was following her… But he just crossed the road and moved on…. “So he was not a gentleman after all… he had to get down too and he just let me do the fighting with the driver!!! Coward!!!”
She started walking back home… by the busy roads of this new city… She was not too far from her home… but the walk seemed like forever…  All her emotions came to its peak now… and she finally let it out… She cried… her sobbing was getting loud… she wanted to stop.. but couldn’t… Nodody noticed her in the dark nor heard her in the noice of the vehicles honking… and she realized how lonely she was here… She didn’t have anyone here… She had to be either back home or get married to her love… This was not the place for her… She was invisible here… She didn’t belong here… She didnt want to belong here…. She cried and cried… She couldn’t go back home…She had already decided to leave home and be independant… So her only way out was marriage…
A ray of hope and joy came into her heart… Finally she was gonna tell him ‘Yes!!” She knew beyond doubt she needed him… that she was ready for marriage… So she dialed his number… She was smiling now though she could still taste her salty tears flowing down her cheak and her lips… He picked up the phone… It was so good to hear his loving voice after a tiresome day! But before she could say anything he said, “Hey sweetheart… give me an hour… I’m on a meeting right now! Talk to you later.. okay?? Bye!!” And the phone went dead…
She was on top of the hill.. so happy about the idea of marriage… of how much she loved him… and he just let her fall down again… He didn’t know about it… but she needed him now… and he let her feel all alone again… If he knew how terribly lonely she was now, he wouldn’t have let her be alone.. but he didn’t know…
There is only one person who can handle such an emotional girl like her… thats Jesus… Craving for love?? Only God can truely satisfy you…
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